So much time passes between me writing on here. I am not sure why I allow this. But I do. A winning combination of overthinking and poor prioritization. DC’s visit has re-invigorated my passion to create, create something outside of myself that will have an impact and outlast me. Going into May, an exciting month, the gateway to summer which inspires movement, openness, growth, etc.. Who am I? What our my goals? What is my anchor? What do I want to know, to create, to own?
I am a thoughtful, powerful woman. I believe that our primary purpose in life is to achieve that which we are born with, cessation - ultimate peace and presence in the moment. A more secondary purpose is creation, to create something larger than one self, that touches fellow humans, ideally for the better, and has a life span longer than you.
Pursuits - creating communities united on curiosity, thoughtful living, and freedom.
- For Money: freelance
- For Passion/Purpose: Curiosity Farms - suburban self-sufficiency experiment. stop outsourcing and starve the system. get curious, curiosity is a path, the path to true freedom, then cessation, which is our purpose. humans are meant to do it all, to be informed, to be part of the world, to be jack of all trades.
“A human being should be able to change a diaper, plan an invasion, butcher a hog, conn a ship, design a building, write a sonnet, balance accounts, build a wall, set a bone, comfort the dying, take orders, give orders, cooperate, act alone, solve equations, analyze a new problem, pitch manure, program a computer, cook a tasty meal, fight efficiently, die gallantly. Specialization is for insects.”
-Passion Project: In tandem w/ curiosity farms, curating curiosity - approaching my human experience with genuine curiosity. curiosity is a pre-requisite to freedom.
- A FAMILY - I want a family. I am not sure if that means a few animals or some human children. But I have a desire to nurture and feel it is part of our charge is to bring worth creation, a existential calling, an unending cycle of life that each is compelled to participate in.
All of this requires a lot more DOING than I currently have been. A lot more time skill building and re-framing what is work vs. leisure. We have become so conditioned that anything challenging is work and not pleasure that we think the only true pleasure we have access to is when we do nothing…when we are passively consuming the work of others. To live a life I want to live that has to change.
Thinking about being a parent, a mom. What type of person would I want to be more my children? Someone who skips workouts and makes excuses? Or someone who makes a plan and sticks to it? Who explores the middle ground and gray with someone, who moves through life with curiosity and intentionality? Who KNOWs things and HOW to do things! Who feels empowered and beautiful and teaches them to do the same. As I am navigating this life altering question, it is time to start farming all experiences and actions as if I do have children - what does that change? Does it change things for the better or worse?