Well, it has been awhile from the initial posts for several reasons. 1) this computer is a nightmare 2) i have gotten re-addicted to youtube 3) change and doing hard things are hard. I made this blog private because I really just need to get into the habit of creation and want to do that and create myself feeling un-judged, with no potential audience or critics to worry about.
Have been thinking about the business I want to start - I think ‘Curating Curiosity’ does perfectly capture how I now try to approach holistic health - curious about human experience, the limits and heights, curious about far my mind, body and soul can go and what I can do with it and I would like to guide others in their own exploratory journeys. I listened to a great podcast today about how triggers are teachers (from Em Dunc’s podcast). I think this re frame, thinking about every reaction as a chance to learn, learning to pause, breathe and replace initial reactions w/ curiosity is a life changer. SOoo maybe I keep the name and tagline, but use this to start a business? But I keep falling into the trap of looking at the finish line, over planning, and thinking in terms of future self (“I will be this and that”) instead of keeping focus on present and what I should be doing now to CREATE myself. Cause that’s the thing - the best content is actually knowing shit, actually having skills, a story, confidence, being fucking real and authentic so THAT’S what I need to focus on - creating me, building skills, habit, and routines, DOING, living out my values, practicing and applying learning and philosophies, curating a life I want and am proud of. AND THEN, maybe, just maybe I share some with the world.
Other updates from last post: 75 hard does not actually align with goals, instead focusing on creating a more sustainable and fluid routine, building good habits and qualities so I am the person that naturally is inclined to do certain things. I have been SHIT with digital detox goals, but that is something that is deeply important to me. Also, want to get more serious about a real detox - continue to heal body. Still on my holistic health journey, now more than every - thinking about womanhood, femininity, and motherhood - really craving deep knowing of myself and cycles, wanting to get off hormonal birth control and continue down road of holistic health and healing.
Rereading ‘Crucial Conversations’ and it is amazing. It is what really started the journey of self discovery and healing I am on now and it is great. The first premise is ‘Start with the Heart’ which I need to do more of. Start with me because that is the only person I can change! And so, we are still in season of snugglet, but continuing to learn, relearn, try, and fail but most importantly never giving up and slowly inching to more clarity and an elevated baseline.
Well that was terribly written and unhinged, but feels good to materialize thoughts and just do something to get me back to this goal.